POV - ur my bank account *cries in coin*

POV - ur my bank account *cries in coin*

• Friday 18 September 2020

Bonjour!

In another episode of 'I Shit You Not,' I've decided I'm not busy enough being a 'Kerr'tastrophe as it is (creds @Sandra Holt) and am 'going home' (to a degree, I suppose - haha PUNS!) to do my Masters through Manchester Uni. 

Going home with an emphasis on 'to a degree' because I'm studying it online and part time because even I'm not stupid enough to do a full time MA with a full time job. So, looks like I'll still be in Landahn for the foreseeable future lolol (POV ur my bank account *cries in coin*). Jk, I love this city and I don't think I'll ever be done with it entirely, but, as always, Manny Repre-SENT xoxo

I always knew I'd be going back to get my MA sometime after I graduated in 2019. I love learning and making a complete fool of myself by trying to articulate stuff that I can barely understand. I was always going to study for my MA...even if I already have one in my surname...it was just a question of what I was going to do, and when I was going to do it.

Looking back, not jumping straight into an MA after third year was, hands down, the best decision I ever could have made. It gave me time to sort my life out a bit - esp with Corona. Nothing like being forced to stay inside to save your immunocompromised mate's life to make you stop and weigh up your options. I'm all for jumping headfirst into something but as the world came to a gradual standstill, so did I, to an extent. It made me realise that there's no real rush and understand that the sense of urgency and immediacy that I built my entire character on wasn't exactly a personality trait; it was a privilege. And, weirdly enough, accepting that I had to slow down helped me make this decision faster than I thought I could. Just call me Alanis Morissette, bcos "isn't it ironic? Don't you think?" 

I had had my toes dipped in too many different ponds and fingers in too many pies for far too long and, finally, I found my feet in the field I never thought I could worm my way into, figured things out as much as you can try to do when you're 22, and now I'm heading back to do what I love most (browsing through ASOS with a sweet student discount with a few tabs of Microsoft auto-recovered draft essay paragraphs open!) "Someboday come geeeet uurrr, she gon' be ay mayster!" - fingers crossed, anyway! 

I found the particular course earlier this year. I read the spec, fell in love, wrote a personal statement almost immediately and loaded it up to my application portal, but I never hit 'send' because, tbh, I didn't think I was capable or good enough or experienced enough in the field and all that stuff (I know I know she's a humble queen too, it's amazing xo). But it played on my mind for a good couple of months. It was my amazing newly-employed-graduate-graphic-fashion-designer-friend Benjamin who eventually convinced me to send it off. I received an email back a few weeks ago to confirm my offer and I'm over the moon! 

So for the next couple of years, I'm prepared to sacrifice my social life, sleep, and any other free time I may have for the sake of working towards getting another fancy piece of paper to prove how much I adore my job and what it is I'm doing and what I hope to do more long term. And I know it's gonna be tough but I want to do it so badly and I'm pretty sure that's half the battle. Plus, in the words of Graphic Fashion Designer Ben Holt, I'm "Kerry Fucking Maxwell." I can do anything 💪💁 (she says hesitantly.) 

What it most certainly means, though, is that any free time I already have is gonna be stretched to the max. So that probably means no more weekly/bi-weekly posts on here for a while but I'll do my best to show my face as often as I can - even if it is just me moaning on about something pointless or letting you in on some more I Got Locked Out stories (because, let's be honest, it's probs going to happen again!) If not that, then something else - I mean, a couple of weeks ago I managed to fall onto the lap of the only other human in the tube carriage xoxo rip me xoxo gone but never forgotten xoxo

So, yeah, your favourite 'Kerr'tastrophe is going to be fumbling her way through her twenties with even more on her plate - and I'm so excited for it. Life's boring only juggling a million things, anyway. Why not make it a million and one? 

All the love (as always) xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

yes that is a pen behind my ear no I don't know why xoxo